“Only God in me, only me in God, can hold the contraries.” — Richard Rohr
For the longest time, I had been trying to fit God, or who I thought God was, inside a tiny box. Then someone reminded me that God cannot be grasped. God is, in fact, the Mystery of Life, and we get to live our lives in this truth.
Within the mystery of life, there are paradoxes, contradictions, and so many unanswered questions… My biggest question is: How do we live in this mystery and coexist with these paradoxes? What about the ones that are inside of us? In an attempt to embrace the inconsistencies, I’ve noticed that it is easier for me to accept the ones that are out of my control, outside of my body and personhood. But the contradictions that live inside of me, in my heart, mind, and spirit… those ones are hard.
For example, sometimes (and I hope this is relatable) I act a certain way or do certain things that I don’t want to do, that are not congruent with who I know I am, my True Self. I am reminded of Paul’s words in Romans: “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.”
Not too long ago, I was reading Richard Rohr’s daily email meditations (I highly recommend subscribing), and it said:
Only God in me, only me in God, can hold the contraries.
This truth reverberated throughout my body and I recalled Jesus’ words, “Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.” Remain, abide in Truth. This is how we can embrace the questions and paradoxes that this life is so full of. This is how we live into our True Self and hold the contraries.